It's not you, it's me...

The fatigue is so bad today, I barely have the energy to type.  I forced myself to go hang up clothes on the line outside and I came in feeling like I was going to pass out.  That small activity took all I had and made my arms ache badly.  So much for mowing today, let alone anything else.

Shifting thoughts - 

When I'm flaring up, or just not feeling well, I'm horrible at being sociable.  I was supposed to return a call to a friend last week and never did.  I was supposed to call my Lemongrass Spa upline yesterday and didn't.  People are going to start thinking I don't like them, but that's far from the truth.  I don't like talking on the phone because I never know when my ears are going to start ringing and when they do, I can't hear very well.  And some days, I'm too exhausted to even talk.  I know it sounds ridiculous, but there are times like yesterday and today, I don't even want to speak.  I would much rather email, text, or message on Facebook because then I can take my time thinking and typing.  I can reread what the other person is writing and comprehend better.

As far as just hanging out, I don't get asked to much anymore, not like I used to anyway.  I've turned people down so many times, a lot of them don't bother asking.  I don't blame them though, I would probably do the same thing, unintentionally.  Besides, who wants to spend time with someone who can't stay awake long enough to have a conversation?

My point is, don't take it personally if I don't call back or turn down a lunch date.  I'm doing the best I can, just don't forget about me; I still like the invites.